Friday, March 5, 2010
doubts doubts doubts
Okie, so they had road closure here..
I was on the usual way then I was like “Oh damn!!”
I had to use the long distance way..
Okie, nevermind..its still okie.
BUT when I finally reached, the guard said
Pusing sana
Alamak, that’s the same road I came from..
I said I need to go to that building that you closed..how am I supposed to go?
He still insisted for me to turn away
And “Hello, saya kerja kata situ la..macam mana nak pergi?”
“Awak staff?!”
Alamak, I don’t look like a staff here??!! *sob*
Just like yesterday..
I was assigned to replace a professional as she could not make it..
Alright, so being the amateur, I went..
First, I asked how many pupils will I be expecting and the personal said “around 20”
When I was there, god forbid it was 33 to the exact amount!
I was oh-so-very-nervous..cold plams..heat beating..
Right, So the whole two and the half hours were rather quite anticipated by me as I had not try out so many pupils at one go..
It gives me back memories
The usual trend that we or I used to experience when I was a student..
Some lepak then balik kelas when its 5 minutes to time
Some masuk lewat
Some talks but they do their exercises
Some keeping quiet, writing frantically
Some quiet, writing but when pass up, its not what it supposed to be
BUT
Again I’ve been doubted..
As I entered, some whispering about why this girl standing in the middle of the room??!!
Then they realized I’m not here to attend the class only when they notice an attendance list and 2 markers in my hand..
When the clock strikes the time to begin, I begin to put on my thinking hat to uphold the task that I’m about to undergo first time and the best thing is WITHOUT any preparation..
But thank god, I was able to keep things within my watch
BUT
Again I’ve been doubted when I started my conversation..
Everyone in the class was just staring at me and trying to digest another fact that I’m speaking the national language although the previous fact that “I am conducting” has not been fully digested yet..
After, like, I was talking to the wall..
A boy made a gesture on signs on wanting me to go over to him..
Okie~
So I did
And he said “我不明白你说什么”
In me, I was like “WHAT?!!!”
Then I replied “二十七面~ 写karangan”
Then he nodded.
As I turned my back but not out of earshot, I heard him whispering to his friends “她真的是华人!”
Then another asked me “cikgu, cikgu~ cikgu umur berapa??”
AHAHA
I remained silent and they started guessing among he and his friend..
Another kid also asked the same question
Another doubt..
Hmm, I’m happy that I don’t look like what I am but..please la~ why doubt me~ T_T
So back to today..
We had some unofficial-so-coincidence discussion in lab..
Voicing out experiences, comments and all
It made me think..
Its true that what had been mentioned by the experienced one..
People tend to change from time to time..
Maybe he was Mr Right to you now
But it might not be in years to come
It depends on how you and your partner preserves it..
A colleague mentioned that her friend, registered but not officially told the public yet but on B&W, they are official..so they both work at different corners but staying under the same roof..the female was being transported to her working area by her friend who is a male..so of course they meet up very frequently..then maybe more than sending and all and she divorced with her hubby and I need not mention more
Then my colleague asked the experienced one “who’s fault it is?”
He replied “I will blame the marriage”
Why? Simply because he said
Marriage is about both parties who had to maintain it..why the inability to do so? There’s no reason why because they are staying together and all..nothing will be able to occur if it is strong..
Someone told me this before
And its true
Another enlightenment was
If you’re choosing between two chances of you NOT choosing both of them is high because you tend to see that both of them have flaws..like you said, no one is perfect..
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