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Current obsession:
GetItHere! lalala~ :D


**in progress..hehe

Since young we always hear parents saying NOT to be fooled by advertisement be it form the idiot box, newspaper, radio or the internet..in short, in any media form

Yet we are aware of it ourselves when we tend to grow out of the situation of a kid being bribed a candy when the kid cries or shows tantrums..

Recently, way before today I read from a local famous newspaper about a datuk launched skin care products..I've already saw the product from our local green pharmacy personal store

Well, it did attract me when I saw it from our local green pharmacy personal store BUT what puts me off when I saw the slogan for the product

MY secret, its now yours

So tell me, what happened to

I used to use O_ _y Whitening Cream to keep me radiant..bla bla bla..my 10 years secret..bla bla bla..

and now

ACTUALLY I used this *you name the new brand yourself* and its now your secret

Tsk tsk tsk

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okie, so I DO have a comment.. =P
But its short and simple..

How ironic can THAT be?

Something for you to ponder on..



Ah!
I feel so unguided and time is running out..
I hope that I'll have a slight idea on how should I go about it.
Okie, if i were to complain and whine about it, people will say

Your Fault

Because I accepted something that I myself did know how to go about it..
But, that's something that you can learn and broaden your horizons, isn't it? =)
There's always something new that you'll learn or encounter in life..
And this is a new, minor challenge that I had involve myself into it..

With me not trying and just withdraw myself out of it before it even started will be not very pleasurable I must say..
Well, details, I can't mention much as I haven't even started to expose myself to the matter yet..
Fingers crossed that it turned up well =)
Well, if I'm able to conduct it, then its another extra that I can add up to my informal resume =)



People usually tend to pin point you or to judge you VERY carefully in everything you do just to kept on thinking “See what’s the mistake”

Just like a teacher when marking or assessing student’s masterpieces..
They tend to be very aware of it..
Some mistakes are obvious but some are so faint that you can barely ever notice them until you really are so focused into forking out a fault..

This applies here..

AH! WHATEVER!!

I’ll pretend to be

Hear no evil
See no evil
Speak no evil
from now on.

Besides, one left and things are dead around so whatever..

Saya akan bersikap
"ah, yela.."
"okiela”
"(although a good method but refused)"okie, up to you "

sahaja



I wanted to blog so much at 1st..

About the crap that had happened during the few early hours of work..

But after that, I thought..

oh, what the hell!

I sick of explaining myself..
Up to them what they want to think..
End of story



So what is the definition of tuition centre or home tuition now a day?

For the sake of just to sooth your heart because you DID went for tuition
Yet still did not score and blame the tutor or school teacher for it?
Or just like a TREND..when parents said
My child goes for this tuition and that tuition sounds like a very sophisticated-loveable-parent?

Then parents, tuition centres who think that way, I hope what comes around will come around..

The students are really extremely not well versed in writing at all..
But great in non writtng..
So, as a well established body isn’t you suppose to GUIDE them on where they are lack in?
But what I had encountered was the total OPPOSITE
No matter how much I explained..
The authority still press on the word “NO” in various ways to what I wanted to allow the student to practice more on what they are lack off..

So, tell me,
What IS tuition to you? Be it home tuition or tuition centres or in whatever form of tuition at all that are those extras apart from school

Then begin to ponder on me wanting to curb more gold that's why i did that..
Gold without being able to educate well, what's the point of educating anymore?

Tsk tsk tsk

Sayer nak "emas" ker the other way round yang nak??

Let me make myself CLEAR here that I'm NOT saying all that had something under their sleeves..

But pandai-pandai la melihat and membuat kesimpulan



Jade is sick
Thus Jade received a 京都念慈菴川貝枇杷膏 that is now sitting on her table to sooth her throat

and
an apple..
another was orange..
*End of story*



Drama 1:
Staring at the lappie screen..
Staring at the four walls surrounding me
Staring the clock on the wall to strikes 12PM
And everyone gets up and sits in their carriage just like Cinderella did

ARGH!!!
Instead of manic Monday, it’s a manic Thursday..
There a saying that someone had told me before:

We only work 1 day, which is Wednesday..
Why?

Because

Monday - you can’t work because you’re still thinking about Sunday
Tuesday - you BEGIN to start to work
Wednesday - a real working mood
Thursday - you begin to feel tired
Friday - you’re thinking about the weekends..what to do and what not
Saturday and Sunday - holiday

Drama 2:
Suddenly, this song has been running in my head

So long farewell, auf weidersehen good-bye
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight

With this short portion of the lyrics being extracted, I wonder how many can identify this ever popular musical movie melody..
To those who still can’t figure out its

So long, farewell from the movie The Sound of Music

Usually biding adieu to someone is difficult but this song made it so easy and uncomplicated..

If ever things in real life could happen that way

I wish I can in not to bid adieu to anything



You can't juggle everything when you wanted to do so huh?
All i can say is i'm NOT a freaking ATM
What do you think?
I'm a freaking billionaire when you get a job?
I wish I was..
SO why is it the other party doesn't have to and I'm being pushed and blamed?
The other party does this and that, that does not satisfy them, they don't make a hill out of a mole hill but they made mine out of it..
What's the problem?
Am i being picked by somewhere?
I did not say i'll just leave or whatsoever..
I'm an idiot who started from zero..
Isn't it wrong to plan?
So much more worried that a non relation personnel owe them something

Am i being picked from somewhere or what?
Who is on their feet all the time and who is the one complaining about not having a luxurious life that i never once complain at all?
Just leave me alone..
Don't try to poke your ass or you nose into my issue..
Go other the other party
Its like a loan to me
More than the heart
I'm being picked, i think



I wanted to go somewhere and I went..
We went into nature again..
Yay..after a long time of not doing so..
I felt blessed as
I was complaining to myself on wanting to go out just like I had on my Facebook..
and I got an adventure to follow suite..
Pictures for you to let you picture it =)
**p/s: FINALLY!!! Pictures on my blog!!!


The moment when we started..it was a long walk..belum sampai, 2 of us already mentioned "tired"..ahaha..so much for soil collection


Here we are..for soil collection and also as a training or introduction for our visitor from Sarawak












One of our interest




Something to feast our eyes on after walking around the whole morning in somewhere out of no where


I took this photo because Uchiyama-san with his cap wore that way that really conflicts with his usual appearance


Last but not least..
Happy Birthday Uchiyama-san
With love from all of us that given you a sudden surprise on the cake that you were so touched by it..
May your wish comes true and God Bless you



Every morning we usually have our usual manic “morning briefing” on a manic Monday..
Everything was as usual when the chairperson himself mentioned that he will be leaving the company after 7 years of his service here..
Although for the past few weeks I sensed some signs of he is leaving but I just shooed it away from my thoughts as it might not be true.

Although he wasn’t my supervisor..
Although he is so many years my senior..
Although his place wasn’t near to me at all but all of our positions are within ear shots if we were to chatter with our neighbours
All of us usually joke around and tease around although all of us might or might not be from the same group..
He was the person who kick out humour in the air and at times, human being humans..do kick out anger as he wasn’t in the mood..
But all in all, all of us here are still closely knitted..

When I heard his announcement..
I don’t know about others but I was devastated..
I hate transactions..
I hate people just walk in and out of your life..
Although the person is none other than just a colleague to you..
But you’re spending most of your days here and if they are closely knitted that what makes things worst when someone leaves..

Although I’m a newbie here but the warmth that they welcome you is like you’ve been here for ages already..well, of course there are at times where things gets ugly but it just depends on what and how you perceive it..

It depends on you wanting to keep the bad in mind at all times or the good or moderate in mind at all times..
It was still oh-so-very-sudden to me although I sensed a few signs before this coming..
Another outspoken person is leaving the company..
I shall have to remain myself quiet from the day he is leaving as most of the time he triggers then shout over conversation from this area to the other area happens and the “haha” that comes that my supervisor told me “Jade, must be serious in work..laugh laugh”..well, serious or not, you know best..i have no comments or I don’t even want to explain myself on that..

Initially, all I wanted to blog about was about the “teh O” that the home had offered me during my service..it was so extremely sweet that I can’t even swallow it..i had to choke it down instead but still I failed to finish up the drink..it looked like its untouched. Everyone had the same drink offered. The personnel drank it too but she made a face I thought she wanted to say too sweet but ended up she said “hot”..

Tsk tsk tsk

But all in all..the fact that someone is leaving the company engulfs the whole mood and blog for today..well, life is what it is..some people come..some people go..they just come, leave footprints in you and they just go..god bless everyone.



杜松混合茉莉的風
回憶裡被愛那股悸動
天色好紅 溫柔好濃
在胸口浮現 你的臉容
一起活在這城市迷宮
提起你名字心還跳動
卻沒重逢
只有想碰卻又不敢碰的那種悸動
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂 走進各自天空
該怎麼說 讓彼此選擇
但思念還轉動

不能握的手
從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著 依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收
不能握的手
卻比親人更親厚
但所有如果
都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔
最溫柔

當又一次美夢落空
回憶裡被愛那股激動
天色好紅 溫柔好濃
在胸口浮現 你的臉容
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂 走進各自天空
那是什麼 讓彼此選擇
又不僅是尊重

不能握的手
從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著 依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收
不能握的手
卻比親人更親厚
但所有如果
都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔
最溫柔

不能握的手
從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著 依然執著
卻決心和你不再聯絡
不能握的手
卻比愛人更長久
當所有如果
都沒有如果
只有失去的擁有
最永久

**让我觉得真的不能



I can’t help it..
I can’t work because I need to blog..

At first I was laughing off about my wise one said that ended up not choosing both..
And it IS true
Dead true

Why?
Maybe because you’re sick and tired of choosing?
Maybe because you tend to think 1 is better than two (regardless of the ironic way of the ever happening song title now by the lovely darling, Taylor Swift)
Maybe you just know that both are not suitable for you
Maybe I just plainly made myself so busy that I find these another burden that I should not have with me..

So
I would like to tell myself to
Snap out of it!!
I have more things to do than these craps!
Like I have a whole list of my resolution to keep it moving..
Well, its not that I had neglected my resolutions..NO!!
Its in the progress and I’m loving it =)
Keep it up Jade-y~



Someone asked me


Will you consider having you ex-bf’s friend as your bf?

Wow

I’ve never thought of it before myself..

And I’m not sure either..because it hasn’t happen before..

Well, if it were to happen, it made me think..

If the person is really meant for me..shall I jus say no JUST because of my ex?

The answer is

NO

Why would I want to let my ex held me back from having someone that I think it is the one?

Yes, it will feel awkward at times as we tend to bump into each other more often..I mean the ex and I but
Hmm, sometimes, life is life..you have to face it and not avoiding it



How do you tell someone that you're no longer interested in what so ever that had been done before?

*Sigh*

It weird to think that how people just get up in the morning and suddenly feels that

Hey, i no longer liking *for you to fill in the blanks*

With just a blink of an eye, things changes..
With just a second had just past, things changes..

Everything changes everyday is just that you don't realize it..
Everything you do, lies commitment..
Everything you do, lies responsibility..
Everything you do, lies effort..



When somebody loves me,
Everything was beautiful,
Every hour that we spent together, lives within my soul

That’s how the melody goes with the title “When She Loves Me”

But is it there anymore?
There’s a saying that the grass is always greener on the other side..
But in time to come, you’ll realize, the grass is no longer greener..or both had the similar greenish colour that had been projected
Yes, both looked equally green to me now but, maybe in time to come, I might be able to see which is STILL green and if both so, which will be in a unique way with comparison on both left, right, above, below and sideways..all angles of green..



Okie, so they had road closure here..
I was on the usual way then I was like “Oh damn!!”
I had to use the long distance way..
Okie, nevermind..its still okie.
BUT when I finally reached, the guard said

Pusing sana

Alamak, that’s the same road I came from..
I said I need to go to that building that you closed..how am I supposed to go?
He still insisted for me to turn away
And “Hello, saya kerja kata situ la..macam mana nak pergi?”
“Awak staff?!”

Alamak, I don’t look like a staff here??!! *sob*
Just like yesterday..
I was assigned to replace a professional as she could not make it..
Alright, so being the amateur, I went..
First, I asked how many pupils will I be expecting and the personal said “around 20”
When I was there, god forbid it was 33 to the exact amount!
I was oh-so-very-nervous..cold plams..heat beating..
Right, So the whole two and the half hours were rather quite anticipated by me as I had not try out so many pupils at one go..
It gives me back memories
The usual trend that we or I used to experience when I was a student..
Some lepak then balik kelas when its 5 minutes to time
Some masuk lewat
Some talks but they do their exercises
Some keeping quiet, writing frantically
Some quiet, writing but when pass up, its not what it supposed to be

BUT
Again I’ve been doubted..
As I entered, some whispering about why this girl standing in the middle of the room??!!
Then they realized I’m not here to attend the class only when they notice an attendance list and 2 markers in my hand..
When the clock strikes the time to begin, I begin to put on my thinking hat to uphold the task that I’m about to undergo first time and the best thing is WITHOUT any preparation..
But thank god, I was able to keep things within my watch
BUT
Again I’ve been doubted when I started my conversation..
Everyone in the class was just staring at me and trying to digest another fact that I’m speaking the national language although the previous fact that “I am conducting” has not been fully digested yet..
After, like, I was talking to the wall..
A boy made a gesture on signs on wanting me to go over to him..
Okie~
So I did
And he said “我不明白你说什么”
In me, I was like “WHAT?!!!”
Then I replied “二十七面~ 写karangan”
Then he nodded.
As I turned my back but not out of earshot, I heard him whispering to his friends “她真的是华人!”
Then another asked me “cikgu, cikgu~ cikgu umur berapa??”

AHAHA

I remained silent and they started guessing among he and his friend..
Another kid also asked the same question

Another doubt..
Hmm, I’m happy that I don’t look like what I am but..please la~ why doubt me~ T_T

So back to today..
We had some unofficial-so-coincidence discussion in lab..
Voicing out experiences, comments and all
It made me think..
Its true that what had been mentioned by the experienced one..
People tend to change from time to time..
Maybe he was Mr Right to you now
But it might not be in years to come
It depends on how you and your partner preserves it..

A colleague mentioned that her friend, registered but not officially told the public yet but on B&W, they are official..so they both work at different corners but staying under the same roof..the female was being transported to her working area by her friend who is a male..so of course they meet up very frequently..then maybe more than sending and all and she divorced with her hubby and I need not mention more

Then my colleague asked the experienced one “who’s fault it is?”
He replied “I will blame the marriage”
Why? Simply because he said

Marriage is about both parties who had to maintain it..why the inability to do so? There’s no reason why because they are staying together and all..nothing will be able to occur if it is strong..

Someone told me this before
And its true

Another enlightenment was
If you’re choosing between two chances of you NOT choosing both of them is high because you tend to see that both of them have flaws..like you said, no one is perfect..



How much can you tell yourself that its okie?
To not to worry a single thingy..
Because it just what it has to be..

Should I express jealousy?
Or should I compress it?
At times, you try not to feel that way but it just comes huh?
Unless you’re confident of yourself which I, of course..isn’t..
But how confident yourself is, you’ll tend to have the negative feeling at times doesn’t it?

But you can’t blame yourself or the other party
Its just the way it should be
Just a thought to ponder is

Are you willing to have this situation in you forever?
If it is meant to be forever?
People said

Don’t play fire with fire

So, if you can’t take hold of something, please don’t still rub it in..
So it loops back to: what happens when what you wanted is something that you can’t or you find it difficult to have?

It all depends on……(drum rolls please) YOU



Back to work again, as usual and i asked our expecting colleague how was the few-weeks-old-little-life in her now..

and she replied

No more

I stopped dead
I thought she was fooling around as she is the joyful-joker type of person
and she went on and on abt saying its gone and then it hit me right in my head that it IS real..no hanky panky..
Well, even i myself not being the expected mother was taking a few moments to phantom the fact that it IS gone, let it be the expecting mother-to-be herself..god..i felt for her..because she..or they had been trying for quite sometime for a life to grow in her and now..its gone..

God bless her with another soul in her again please

I hate it when the internet connection dies off while you're stranded in a place because you HAVE to be stranded although you can just flunk open the doors and just ride on your ride that is already siting under the hot scalding sunlight waiting for you to go home..

*Sigh*

I wonder when the connection will be functioning again

Have you ever encounter a situation when you want to hate that someone but ended up you can't because that person..macam tahu aje what is your intention and try to save it back and then it loops again..

To me, i think it is a coincidence..like what people usually says.."the plan" that had been planned by almighty for us..

My previous cell group discussion enlightened us on being patience on waiting for almighty's answer or reply to our prayers and she preached "a joke mentioned that a person prayed: god, i want to be patience so give me patience NOW"

Ironic but true..

Just like me telling god "i want an answer~"
I don't know why am i being so pushy ..
Jade, hush!! *Sigh*