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Life is so fated..

Do you believe in fate??

Does it exist or its us who created it and we considered it as "fate"?

When is the right decision when is not?

My colleague said "Must know what you want"

So, what i want?

I know what i want..but what happens if what you wanted is not fully what you wanted?

Sometimes, things doesn't turn out as what you expect it to be..
Sometimes, things also doesn't have to be your way to expect great things ahead of you..

As a saying goes,"things are best when it is least expected"

God, please give me strength to be wise and also to open eyes wide in whatever i do..

Will it be a success??
Can it be drag after awhile only to determine?

Need to stop being a coward..need to stop being a chicken and try out the risk, right? *glup*

I hate being a grown up..that's what i mentioned that "i NEVER want to grow up"



How do you know when you're actually a chicken for not being a risk taker?

I knew it now, well..not truly..i knew it a decade ago but it is PROVEN now..

So, face facts..we are all grown up..big boys big girls..from asking you to buy a candy to buying a shoplot or a house for investment purposes..

The game has got bigger..but not my heart..it remains the same size..a little heart of mine can't accept the risks that are ahead of me..

Go set up a business..
Go for an investment..
Go for share markets..

And i had butterflies in my stomach..

So how much is how much to start a business?
What if, tempat dah ada..
But publicity?
What business? Products or services..

So let's say i'll go for services..hmm..i'm afraid of the fact that no one is interested..if they do have someone..well, how many closed sales you need to have in order to cover up everything and also to earn the extra for personal use?

Its more of like a gamble..
BUt, i daresay i'm a chicken to gamble in all these..

Shall i give a shot?
Shall i not?
Hmm..

If ever we can see the future..ahaha~

Forget about business or investments..even myself i'm a chicken..
Starting a new life like having a family or whatever is a gamble in life too..
How the spouse is..
How to educate the little ones..
How to be a breadwinner, be it the main or the sub to ensure life..
How to have me time and also couple time without the little ones..

My neighbour once asked "when is your turn to get married?"
I answered "NO money to do so?"
And she snapped saying that "money is NEVER enough!SO if you say that is the reason, you'll NEVER marry"

Ouch, it hurts..but its true isn't it??money is NEVER enough..
Once it comes then it goes off so fast that you don't even have the little split second of admiring the thick notes you had in your hands..

Someone once told me "you think working a day for ..say..8 hours, you get that certain amount, you're satisfied already..BUT when you get the money, you spend it in a minute and all gone"

Well,its a fact though!!!

Hmm..well..to business or not
To invest or not
just like asking to marry or not..
ahaha!

God, i need strength



Have you ever decided something and then ended up regretting it?

Do i really feel regret or i just had a bad mood so everything also seems bad to me?

*Sigh*i don't know..

Its crazy with human feelings huh?

I'm here being so extremely reluctant to continue to sit here until working hours had pass..

I feel like..going home..

I hate going out without having a "swim" and maybe that tells me why i feel so reluctant now?

It is so extremely cold here yet i can't turn up the temperature because people around here are like those who used to live in Arctic or Antarctic..full blast fan with the lowest temperature that the air cond can go..and this setting applies to the 3 machines in the SAME room..a room that is as small as..erm..a classroom?

Half of us are putting on mask IN the office because half of them are unwell and this gives you the creeps every time you step into the office..well, it is normal for us to put on a mask because at times, weather you're sick or not, a mask is essential to avoid contaminating our babies (notice that is not because of our safety..ahaha)

There's so much i want to write..so much i want to tell but people will be saying "boring boring, too wordy~ no picture"..

Well, blogs are not only meant for pictures of food or some of your vacation pictures or goods that you want to sell or stuff that you just bought or to advertise your beauty by frantically clicking away photos that shines you or something funny or a deco or..well, you get the picture of what i'm trying to say..

If i were to saja saja just find gambar to post..alamak..there's no meaning to my blog anymore..sebab bukannya itu yang saya nak share or express..

Another thing that clouds my mind is..how much, till what extend that will someone helps the other? A subjective question again huh? Well, back to work..need to check out on how to make my babies more outstanding to the world..if i don't help myself, dream on, on having someone to help you..even you help yourself also tak ada orang tolong, apatah lagi if you tak help yourself?



There's so many things to consider in life in all aspects huh?

For starters i tend to envy blogs or post in any form that poses great, flaky and soft muffins because i can't get it done that way yet!!! &^%$^^%&^^*&

Then, moving on to..why not being able to earn more~ to buy baju lawa..maintainance in any sorts..house etc..

Next, argh!!! My little babies are not being special..the are just..normal..*Sigh*
Come on kids, be special for mummy so mummy able to gain more and thus to be able to rare you more than dumping you into the autoclave machine that hits 121˚C or you ended up under high frequency of UV light..

On the a=other hand, another kid.."Hey, absorb all what i said well and PLEASE score" T_T

Moving on, the all time favourite Q everyday "What to eat" and forever i'll answer "anything".

A lame one is "ARGH!!!ANOTHER ZIT!!"




Simple picture..that has it all well said



I've came across a forum which discuss on What do interest guys when it comes to picking girls..

Is it looks?
Is it personality?

What the person wants to know is till what circumstances that made the guy made the first move to want to have the girl as his other half..

Most of them replied saying that guys definitely go for looks first

Another did mentioned the same thing too but inaddition of


face 1st.. then body.. those are for 1st impression.. after that character, attitude plays more important roles.

and someone replied in a different way..
Younger ones look for Beauties!
Older ones look for Suitability!
but i think most of the guys looking for Financial abilities...

A guy answered
Pretty face,Good developed body,Nice attitude,Always hear my order,100% loyal to me eventhough i am not to her.

To sum up
every man want not one but all three
1)Pretty face
2)Good body
3)Nice attitude

and many more..all i can say is..mist of them says they go for looks and the body (means the breast and all)..

Well, what i can say is..why not looking at yourself in the mirror first before judging the girl?I mean..there's no perfect girl in this world and definitely no perfect guy in this world..it depends on how you perceive it..

Another guy said
I think most guy won't forever satisfied to his gf or wife's appearance. When the stage you are going after a girl, you may feel that girl very pretty, very sexy, perhap very attractive. After you successfully approach her, you will start feel boring after couple of months and may think ofF your gf is not really beautiful or an ugly animal.

I'm personally prefer long attached relationship. So, I will go for character. No doubt, it take time to observe a girl. But I feel it's worth for it because she may be my life partner with such as good charater.

An advise to all guys - Appearance won stand last forever, after 40, all women are Aunty (No offend to girl). Those with big boob lagi teruk, You sendiri imagine on how papaya is look like.

To me, i think that is so true..
First you think she is great then at later times, you tend to pin point her this and that and blaming her not pretty and all.

So, what do guys really wants?

Its just like asking is the cloud looks the same as what i see in Malaysia compared to other countries..

Different people, different liking..

I've came across a guy who says that he thinks a girl with back and front but too skinny is a turn off..but some guys like skinny girls..so..its difficult to have a definite answer..

Some says that the girl has to treat him good and right..well, are you treating the girl right and good as well in return?

well, another person summarized it as
body > look > attitude for gf
attitude > look > body for wife

and another well said
I think at the beginning, a decent guy who is serious will also think of the 'sex' factor... decent guys are still a guy!! Lol!! But after a while, when they have watched us cry, sick, laugh, angry, pain, asleep, awake, shower, etc, I think everything boils down to the inside like kindness, understanding, patience, temper, etc. Because over a long period of time, no matter how beautiful we women are, it still bores them off.

Even if our boyfriends is Brad Pitt everyday, if we see them and catches all of their impressions, after 2 years... It will occur to us "OH, it's just Brad, not big deal..." But if it is his attitude / character that catches me, after 20 years, I'd still be impressed



Do you know there's other ways to make use of your staple bullets?

Someone i know uses it as (drum beats please) a TOOTHPICK

When i heard that, my first reaction was "HA??!!"

She says that it works way BETTER than those ordinary wooden toothpicks

She even elaborate on her procedures on how to use a staple bullet as a toothpick

First, break a bullet
Then, lay it straight
Next, hold it in position
Finally, start digging

God~

What can i say about it?

New era toothpick? ahaha~

Then my other colleague said "maybe that will be our new invention"

and the other said "but its reusable so not many buyers"

The later replied "it will rust so can't be reused"

and we continue with our work..

Then we proceed to other discussions

After a long chat and so many issues we shared..i suddenly think that..our life..is somewhat similar..the only thing that makes it different is the way we perceive a certain situation or item or another individual.

How special you want your partner to be?

How perfect you want the partner to be?

It all depends on how you see it doesn't it?

It depends on you having the feeling for that individual or not..

At the end, it still depends on you..

After all the never-ending-discussion on getting an answer for "What does an individual really wants from its other half issue", we were all sitting down there doing our job frantically with only one aim and answer: to gain a hit strain or a unique strain that enables us a better life in financial wise



Take 1:
有时我们不时经常很幸福像"如鱼得水"

因此,有时我们会有气性..

我觉得人人也有气性..

那,假如, 那个问题还没解决

我希望我还是能伪装很幸福的表情

Take 2:





是不是想有看这个照相机的照片? hehe..

假如, 你问我, 什么是他的功能, 我不大瞭 =P

但是, 我知道他的 model 是 Nikon D90..

你不觉得他很美吗?



Take 1:
ARGH!!!!my damn muffins are still not fluffy!!!

Take 2:
Things that makes a tutor happy when
(1)the kid improved..not A only but students from C to B is an achievement also
(2)when little kids calls you "lao shi" or..



Take 3:

Notes that had been left on your table "while-you-are-away"

Take 4:



My lovely 3D doggie!!! I finished it in 3 hours time i think..with a little distraction form messages..songs..IMs..ahaha



這時候最能讓我想起你
多希望你在這裡
你總是願意把你的手心借給我握緊
該往哪裡
我總是依賴著你
你是我的方向感
我可以確定
你會帶著我朝對的方向前進

i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
你能讓煩惱變得渺小
我遇見一個最懂我的人
我會提醒自己
把這份愛收好
i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
只要牽著你的手就知道
我不是一個人在這世界停靠
因為我擁有你在我心裡

i'm thinking of you
有你真好
thinking of you
因為有你
我看見世界的美麗
i'm thinking of you
我有你真好
只要牽著你的手就知道(我就知道)
我早已經沒有任何缺少
因為我擁有你在我心裡





我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你



**please tune to 杨丞琳-太烦恼 while reading this post

Why humans NEED to make decisions??!!

*Sigh*

I hate it..

I hate it so very much!!!

Decisions..decision~

Risky yet had to be done..choose the wrong one and you're done..



I was fondling with my mind thinking how should i express my thoughts here about something when i read this post from Cheryl (you can view it at http://cherylest.blogspot.com/2010/01/celebrating-life.html)

It really caught my attention on that as i myself was pondering on it...

To me, i think its too subjective to explain that complicated feeling..

Is it really love?
or its companion?
or is it just pity?
or is it just responsibility?
or is it just the excitement?
or is it just a trend?

How do you choose a person that you really think is "the one"?

My friend once asked me "how do you SEE it.."
I stopped dead for a second..
then i replied "okie la, its luck then..weather you get a good one or not because ppl tend to conceal their flaws and it only appears only when they wipe it off"

Okie~ then now it sounded like a GAMBLE to me..
because you never know when a person say something is really true or so..

To me, i did not had the feeling like what cheryl had on "her candy being robbed"
To me, its more like someone had hit me so hard on my head to tell me "REALITY!!"
I daresay i'm not a risk taker..
IF someone able to assure me "this is the one"

When it is puppy love?
When it is just a crush?
When it is just like and not love?
When it is just to want a "Ti dai"?

*ponders*



Have you ever had a once-in-a-blue-moon bad day?

Mine was a HYPER bad day!!

For starters, i forgot to bring my mobile phone..

Okie, tak pe..tak terasa lagi..still can live without it..

Then, work as usual..prepare my media for my babies to grow on it..

Then..

OMG!!!! My whole day media gone wrong!!! why??!!

Because of that stupid electric tripped and the autoclave machine slept off and bye bye my bacteria's home..wth..

I feel so bad..wasted all the products..materials..god..

I vow to do better..



I realised that i haven't been posting anything since the new year is here..so here am I posting up something..

Well, all i can say is..when the clock strikes 12, cheered for a few seconds for the new year and i gradually go to bed..to me, new year..so what?..another year..another day only..nothing changes unless i start to change something out of it..so nothing much to celebrate on it..lainla if birthday ke..whatever day ke..

Take 1:
God, you know when is 0900 when the natural-scent of food fills up the atmosphere here..

Alright, so a company that provides H2O, milo, coffee, tea..very much natural if these scent fills up the air..but here,

1st it was the scent of the all time Malaysian favourite: Nasi Lemak
Then comes the scent of kuih muih
Next, another person came in and filled up the air with the unforgettable scent of our very own Gardinea Bread..

OMG!! What's next??!!

(Really ada lagi tau!)Next, Mee hoon goreng..

Then the next session, lunch time

The scent of PETAI
Acar
Ayam masak lemak
Ayam masak cili
Chap fan (mixed rice)
*Ocasionally* Mc D, KFC
(You name it)

Then, you ain't need to look at the time to know that its already 1600 when the air is filled with:

Milo
Coffee

These are normal for tea time..but..ALSO

the scent of...INSTANT NOODLES..for tea time!!!!

Not to forget the sound effects added to the air by

Crackers
Chipsmore
Twisties
Asam

AND aslo

Food discussion..

OMG!!! So mengoda kat sini..not human but by foods..

Take 2:
I wonder who created this damn so-called-office-chair!!!

It discriminates a short person like me!!! God!!

Sitting right inside makes my feet barely touches the floor and so i have to sit half of it and for hours!!! Killed my back..ARGH!!!..I feel old now (since its new and i'm another year OLDER)..like..REALLY old..

*Sigh*

Take 3:
Have you ever wished you NEVER started to know someone better than before or

Have you ever wished you did not mention something that you know it will make the other person just didn't want to communicate with you no more?

Someone once told me before

"Friend? Friend means: don't answer or reply your call, don't msg, don't talk etc etc"

OMG!!!!

That's your FRIENDS?

Those are STRANGERS already to me..

Isn't it?

Hmm..i wonder what is this person's personal definition of "friend"

Take 3:
Do everything we do we have to want some benefits from the other party?

I feel so disappoint in you-know-who-you-are-that-i-am-talking-about

How much a cover up was made till so obvious that you realised the other party is just wearing a mask?

Its subjective, i know but at times..sincerity pays way more than buying an expensive mask and putting it on that suffocates you and brings you facial problems (literally speaking..fact: mental depression of not being able to express oneself fully) that makes you so frustrated and ended up peeling of the mask at the end of the day also..

I should hate you..

BUt since that is YOUR definition of friend..then maybe i should not no more..

........right?