Friday, July 31, 2009
i mau but tak mau
Jade is feeling really down..
Actually the kids that i'm helping on..or naturing on..they 9/10 are problematic kids..
Case 1:
Just a petty std 1 kid..
He practically knock down one of the day care's door by kicking it and clenching his teeth so tightly together..
It sounds funny as you imagine it but it was hell scary as a petty little innocent looking blur boy was once so wild..
Case 2:
A std 6 boy, he is i daresay rather a good looking boy..
But he is like a devil..
Even until now..
He past, sprayed paint over a teacher's car, smashed a teacher's car and those sort
and so many more cases
and they are still there, in that day care..
Some left before but they came back..to me..
Its not because the day care is good or what sort..
To me its because the parents themselves can't control them..
Then what's us, just a teacher, someone that has no blood relation?
All matters arised this week..
The std 6 kid,
I told him to do that essay..
He didn't get it but he was fooling around..
I said do..
He tak faham than tell me then..
But he didn't..keep fooling around and took his friend's to COPY..
I HATE people who copies..dahla eassay tulis like shit and mau copy!!
I got angry..and i know he is hell afraid of the day care owner..so i said either you do it here or downstairs (the owner was downstairs)..
He hell cared what i said..
I got pissed..i hit the table..and told him to get down..
He still fooling around with his friends on purpose..
(Alright, maybe this was my fault)I threw his book on the floor and said get down!
He got up from his chair..Honestly, when he did that, i had a pinch of fear..fear as he might hit me..but if he really does..i can't hit back..why?there's no one to back me up..all the kids can say "teacher hit first"..
Well, he just took his book up and bang the table and sat down and did his essay..
This might sound funny to you but..
Since the first day, i know well that he is not afraid of me..
I can see he was as coward as a rat when the day care owner came around the class that i'm supposed to conduct..
Even when Barry was conducting the class, he has this little fear of Barry..
But when it was me, he tends to become an animal..
WHY?
No one knows why..
Even Barry..
He can sense that he isn't afraid of me..and Barry has no idea why he is afraid of him..
To me,
1) i'm a female..naturally the kid knows although he is a kid, but he definately will be stronger than me
2) Barry is a guy and he is rather bigger in size so he is afraid
3) the day care owner??he is tiny in size too..but why??because he has the relation with his parents..once the owner had a "little chat" with the parents and that's it..
That was why third class with the kid and I know i can't control him..I told the owner..
He said "If you are in a middle of a problem, what do you do? You would find a SOLUTION, right?"
Yes he was and IS right but i really know that, that's my limit..this kid, i really can't..
Then the owner asked the kid..why was he like that to me..
The kid said: I don't know why i was so bad tempered also today but Jade lao shi didn't RESPECT me also because she hit the table and threw my book
Hit a table and threw a book=not respecting me
Well, what about respect ME first?
The way he treated me in class, i'm not a teacher..i'm a pile of shit you know..
A kid is talking about respect..and the BEST thing is, the owner told me..
his dad is a..erm..how should i say..orang yang bukan calang calang nya..ada power..if the child tak syok and complain to his that, me, myself and i will kena
THEN, I KNEW WHY THE PREVIOUS TUTOR THAT THOUGHT HIM (i took over the class after she left) was so damn afraid of the kid when she conducted the class..
kid: i don't want to do this essay!!
tutor: okie, okie..don't do..
THis is not what a tutor supposed to be..and i daresay i WILL NOT do so..
But i can't control..so after hearing that, i will also be the next under his mercy tutor too, isn't it?
Upon hearing that, i definately will NOT conduct the class no more..
Call me a coward if you want to but bear in mind that,
If i become that so called tutor when i'm actually under the kid's mercy..then what's the point of me teaching him anymore?I'm there to TEACH, he LEARN not me being there merely just to get my salary and the kid learns nothing..if i am sure i can't control the kid, why waste his time and mine?Honestly, the money i get does NOT telly..AT ALL with the stress and the pain that i'm going through to educate these problematic kids..but..its the responsibility as a tutor..I NEVER thought i will be a tutor you know..yes, i admit, the salary does not motivate me AT ALL, i just want to fulfill the credit hours that i stupidly signed up for..but as i stepped into this deeper..i have that heart to educate them..to help them..
I know, the owner said they are very pitiful..most of the parents either tak kisah about them or from a problematic, disorganize or a broken home..that's why their what they are..I can understand that..but..if i'm trying..but not the kid..
This person here said "then don't continue teaching then"..hmm..for me..i don't know..half wanted to leave half wanted to stay..although they are spoilt brats and all..but i had that passion to try to alter them..but..i think it is not within my ability..i felt bad..seriously..
*SIGH*
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
yellow to green
So I haven't been blogging..
Yea Yea yea~
Its the same..the kids getting more and more mischievous..yada yada
But kids really says the darnest things!!
Darnest thing 1:
So, there's this exercise which stated
Little Red Riding Hood-scared-wolf-wants to eat
AND
The kid wrote...
Little Red Riding Hood scared off the wolf because the wolf wants to eat her
Darnest thing 2:
Form a sentence using the word given..
A kid wrote...
I saw Daniel and his girlfriend was passing motion together in the toilet
WHAT THE HELL??!!
>>>>>>>>>end of kid's darnest words<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
I'm down with a fever again..hmm, I'm blaming the fact that its due to that stupid wisdom tooth that is jutting out from my gum..*sigh*
(Well, that's what i heard from people saying that you will get a fever if that stupid tooth comes out)
I'm finally not helping the competitor of the company that had gave me its services..
I'm finally in alliance with..
The green company.. (well, its not my fault to betray them!!They didn't want me..)
and they finally wanted me..
BUT
They hated my true self they wanted me to disguise as another person *sigh* (I'm that BAD to them?? T_T)
Usually when you took photos with people, the photos that had you in it, people, or I, myself tend to want that photo to be kept..for memories..and yesterday it was like a free photo session of us and not a single photo we can keep..darn!! lesson learn!! Next time, bring a pendrive with you 24/7!
Some even snapped all 4 of us from a far..and a guy was holding a professional camera and said "no, i only want to take a pic of the 4 of you"..after taking the photo, he said,"all right, i'll put it on youtube"..all 4 of us were like,"WHAT??!!!"
So there was only one female character and i don't know why..the organizer who recruit us told us to be into the character..i was like,"oh damn, so i have to act BITCHY??!!" (for those who don't who am i impersonating *DUH!* this lady was once popular for her bitchy-ness)..and the organizer answered me with one oh-so-very-familar sentence "yea baby~" =_="
So, who were we?? Presenting, the 4 impersonators..
So, the organizer told me,"hey, strike a solo post..the post of the ever popular lady that you're impersonating" (for those who still doesn't know her *DUH!* she is the lady with the fan under the skirt and it flies etc and all)
So, strike a post
He and the other impersonator said "YEA!THAT"S RIGHT!!"
ahaha~
Its quite embarrassing at times but when you are in it with a few others..so what if it is?Its fun you know..although sometimes we scared the kid..we targeted the kids and a group of teenagers going shopping over there..its silly..but its fun..its really fun..Supposing, there were 5 of us but one guy chicken out when he knew that they had to wear a wig that will RUINED his lovely gelled hair..
So, i did fix my hair (not in saloon okie..) and i was thinking "what the heck, just put on the costume and have some fun!"
The gimmick was this..
This green company is promoting that so called canggih phone that they are going to launch soon..well, to me, the phone tak canggih mana pun~
Camera, 3.0MP only..ceh, my phone lagi la bagus..3.2MP
Just because of the stupid internet access thingy, okie well, maybe i'm not an internet freak like the others so i don't see the importance of the phone that enables the access to the world wide web..
All right, so this were the set ups for the green company..
They had some unknown band singing for them and the gf was sitting there looking at her bf singing for the roadshow and the bf seems to be like..singing only for her to hear?? He is just staring at her way only~
Okie, i had to admit one thing that the difference between the green company and the yellow company set up was, the green company tends to do it at high classed are and targets high end people whereas the yellow company tends to target all range of people..be it for the lower end, middle or the high end..
Previously i was wondering, how did that green company survive as the charges are expensive and all..but now i know why..people tends to say that the yellow company's coverage is still rather bad..so usually high end people kan busy~ and high end, so why would they bother about the high cost kan??
But all in all, i think it depends on your circle of friends..if you tend to have more friends who are using the green company, so its unwise for you to switch to the yellow and pay higher to keep in touch with them..bukan have to follow your friends..but that;s what a phone is for right??for communication..ahaha~
Our so called MJ has this..erm..watch + phone device..i haven't seen it before!!I heard of it but haven't seen a tanglable one before
BTw, i would like to say "Thank you Belly (Barry) and Lion (Ryan) for your gift..love it so much!"
Can't help but i took the photo of this..it looks so cute..made from wood
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
A wonderful day
ahaha~~
I don't know what to say..i'm partly with the yellow company partly with the..erm..orange company..
The stage for the mobile fair
Yellow company
Orange company
This is where i sat for my lunch-dinner as i'm down with a fever..but i was okie to work so i brought my own food to savour instead..
The view for my meal.. (darn!! Mc D is just there!!)
Our boss treated us all ice cream of our choice..which i tak sempat snap the pic..hehe..thank you to him..okie, so i had a flu..i shouldn't be having ice cream but its irresistable~~
Then the day goes by, by me, tying balloons around the event area and chatting away..okie, that took up half of my day..
When night falls, they had this lucky draw thingy etc which attracted to many people..then, i spotted a person which look familar to me..
OMG!!!its my friend..
holding a paper bag of a well known all time favourite cookie that has so many branches all around the world..i thanked my friend for that..
The best part of today??
Honestly NOT about those..good looking guys who was working with me and asking me so many questions about myself and ended up stop asking (1 of them) when he knew i had another half..btw, i seriously don't give a damn about those guys..
NOT about the bear that my friend came over by surprised to give it to me..
It's..
Those balloons that i had given out that made kids grining from ear to ear or made them bare their teeth at me and saying thank you shyly
and the 1 that wraps up my day was..
When i was walking back to the parking lot after my job..
I saw a guy was standing at my car bonnet..i was like
What in the world!!!What is that guy is trying to do to my car??!!
I was so scared because i was alone..
I quicken my pace as he is the only one there..no gang or group with him..and then i went
EXCUSE ME??!!!
and i burst out laughing from the heart..
He was a stranger to me again..all over as i blew off my birthday candle, cut my birthday cake and shared a piece of it right at the parking lot with only three cars left
I did not manage to snap the cake that has not been touched..
But i've manage to thank god and him for the wonderful minutes that wraps up my birthday for this year..
Its not the expensive dinner that we supposed to sit for together..
Its not the expensive gift that i'll receive..A FEW non branded, decent gift that cost the same as A branded gift is better than getting A branded gift..i need not need brands..
Its the deeds and the person that wraps up wonders huh??
Thank you dear~
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Thursday, July 9, 2009
worth
OKie, so I'm supposed to rest..
I JUST got a slight flu and a dry throat..
But, what made me blog here..???
Hmm..
I fleed from my daily routine to cell group today..
HOnestly, i did hesitate on joining..but i snapped myself out and i then spent sometime..willingly, later after that on wanting to know more about "The Almighty"
I'm dead tired..but i did not hesitate no more on going..i don't know why..although i'm tired, although i'm whining inside me that i'm really tired and also added that that this is "the week" that i really felt what it was supposed to be felt when one is a student and the other is a worker..
From past cell groups, i was exposed from being specific in praying right to HE anwers our prayers but the only question is WHEN..today, they enlightened me on healthy self esteem..
AFter all the great explaination of it, i was extremely wiped out..i need to excuse myself early to go home and not miggling around with the rest after cell..
The journey home was rather rough
Then i thought "no worries, think abt getting to munch on food when i reached home" (I'm tired AND hungry)
When i got home..
NO ONE WAS HOME=no food/dinner
ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mentioned to the receiver that frequently receives my whining and childish-ness manner in me that
i was home AND alone..
NOw a days, i kept receiving "missed called messages" from the mobile phone line company instead of the phone rings..weird~
So happened that this happened when my most frequent caller called me..and with that, the caller's plan to sleep well turned into making an aimless journey to and back home from middle of a crazy road with a few flying vehicles..
Luckily i received the missed call msg just in time to let the caller know that i'm okie~
So, some of you might be thinking "SO???"
Well, what i can say is..sometimes, i really need a healthy self esteem that there's wonderful things around me but i don't have the confidence to say "i will have it" or "i've got it with me"
No offence but people around me do ask me the same question when i told them i need to go for cell..
Q1: Your "he" is a christian is it?
Q2: Are you converting??!!! (with the aghast look!!)
Q3: Why are you joining??!!
Well, all i can say is
I'm still what i am
but i must say that cell group does made me think the other way and made my attention focused more onto the side that i had never lay my eyes on..a part that explains everyone's life..but i've never being guided to that part of our life before..a part that i can't explain what and how it is..but i know it definately is in everyone's life..
I feel balanced in all aspects in my life now..the "balance" might not be prefect all together..not those cloud 9 balance..not those fairy taled "live happily ever after" balance that definately does not happen in real life..an obstacle also fits into the balance..but i now daresay
My life is complete
My life will not be complete without them, will not be complete without you and certainly will not be prefect without the stranger that suddenly appeared out of no where to step into my life, planned and gifted by Almighty for us to meet..
Good Night
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Monday, July 6, 2009
urban and outskirt area
I haven't been blogging lately..yes, i know..
I've abandon my blog..
Sorry blog~ *muacks*
Okie..
So, this is what happens to KL people??
I went to Malacca and back with my long lost friends =P
We went to
the orchard
to grab
rambutans (what's it in english huh?? i googled it and it is still rambutan..god, i forgot what rambutan is in english!!!)
and durians..
So naturally its some what in some outskirt area
with trees
and trees
and weeds and..
COWS and my gf said "EH!!!!!COWSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!"
That's why i said
ORANG KL
So, what's about this pic of another rambutan tree?? Well, i wanted to show you the massive ant nest that the ants built!!god it was one big nest i must say!!
While we were busy harvesting and also slapping my feet to kill those damn mosquitoes, I saw this!!
bird nest!!but no eggs or birds in it..
and this..
what is it??cow dung but the mushrooms grew so well on it..ahaha~ talk about real fertilizers!
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