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Sunday, October 5, 2008
under the shadow..forever??!!!

I have an elder brother and he went overseas to persue his degree. My mum was like "After he finished his studies ya da ya da then you are going there also and take up something..a 1 year course"...

I was like,"WHAT THE...??!!"*in mind*..He gets to choose what he wants to do..and I wasn't even asked about what I want and just ORDER me to go here and there?!I was like..
a)because I'm a girl
b)they just desperately want me to go there for no apparent reason

Honestly, ppl say going oversea is better..but, I really don't have the urge to do so. So what if my brother is DYING to go there..does that resembles me too?Does it?!He is my spine?my mind?

I know they will say things like "it's for your own good" and bla bla bla..But come on, I can't decide for myself is it? It's not that JUST BECAUSE they order me to go so I want to go against it so I'm not going. Honestly, I'm really really not INTERESTED at all to go. Maybe I will if I have no other choices like I can't look for a job here to keep me going..But I haven't even TRY yet..If I really had to go, its really the last resort..If everything goes well here, I wouldn't want to go there. For vacation, indeed great but for a long term..the PR thingy and being a resident thingy..I think, its a no for me for now. I want to give it a try over here and i'm definately NOT DESPERATE to go there..

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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
wow then ....oh~~

Such a mixed feeling today.. I'm so bored that I nearly melt off the floor.. *Sigh*

I can't sleep yesterday..I don't no why..for no apparent reason..*sigh*

I don't even know what to blog on..god..today is the 1st day of Raya. Went over to my neighbours house.. My long missed rendang and lemang..haha..But when I got home..I'm back to gloomy and bored..no idea why..god..

Sometimes, when a guy says that they are so into you..but at the other side he is aiming for another 1 also..I don't know what to say..I mean..I'm a girl. If that happens to me, I think I will also ponder on the truthfullness of that guy towards me..as I know..I'm not the hot, sexy, pretty girl..I'm just an ordinary girl..with pimple scars all over my face..I will then ponder..will he be true to me?? There's so many hot, sexy, pretty girls out there..be it highly dressed or make up that I don't do so..sooner or later, he's love will tranish towards me and finally, leaving me for another girl..



I don't know why I'm crapping about this either..well, back to reality that is really hapenning to me..*ha~ ha~ =_=* I just checked my pass-fail result for my finals for last sem and I passed all!!! I was worried at 1st as some, I think I might do badly and there's 1, the lecturer seemed to just..marked the paper reluctantly..just like our test.. According to 1 of my classmate, the lecturer pick and choose who to mark and the rest, he just "AGAK-AGAK"..I was like, WHAT?!AGAK?! you can actually simply pen down a score or mark for a student??!!OMG!!!!

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