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Thursday, March 26, 2009
thoughts..does he know that??

It was the day that of serious boredom where i seriously only do 1 action the whole damn day..

*sigh*





Ahead of me was a couple..sitting together..striding their own stuffs..made me think

Oh, that didn't happen to me that often previously..

I understand that the other has nothing to do..well, I seriously did not blame the other..i did told the other to join his friends instead..but I know he refuses because I know that he wants to be beside me..

What happens next??

I'm not smart enough as the other girls..Why others can be smarter, they don't need to study that way..


but i really need to study as its BIO for god's sake..

I was shell shocked..all i can say silently in my broken heart is..

I'm sorry dear..I wanted to be as good as that too..who doesn't??


I was wondering..does he knows that i was crying abt it alone and blamed myself abt it??If he knows it, maybe he might say "yea!!you should be!"

Being smart and capable in every event is definately everyone's wish..but, no one is perfect..

In that situation, i seriously wish that he doesn't sit beside me..as..honestly seeing him there, doing nothing, clouded by boredom is so painful..I seriously feel so painful abt it..does he knows that??..i'm seriously not sure abt it..

God, i hereby kneeling on my knees to pledge you to please give me the strength..you've test me in so many odds..please god..give me a good ending..every night i kneeled down to you to pray for this..for peacefulness in me..I'm really really tired with the odds that you've tested on me..and I believe i had done it well as i'm still a HUMAN..





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